Saturday, February 28, 2009 10:10 PM

Just an opinion Current mood: hungry Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities Ok, so I just found out that the Never Ending Story indeed can't just end for good. It just keeps going and going, which in this case -as oppose to the sequels which sucked big time- could be a good thing. Reading that they might bring it back into the big screen brought a lot of memories. Also, even though I loved it when I was a kid, and now that I've seen it as an adult just makes me feel a bit embarrased, with all the modern special effects and all that good stuff it might look better. Anyways, what is it with all this remaking of everything already made now a days? It seems to me that the movie industry just ran out of ideas.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009 10:00 PM

Warning!!! EMO Blog Current mood: sad Category: Life I don't seem to follow through on my goals very well anymore, I suck at it. I used to be pretty good though, what happened to me? From 2005 up to summer of last year, I would just get up every morning with an objective in mind, no complaining. I would get up at 5 every morning, go to work, do my job then go home and live my life, then 7:30 would come and I would go to my classes, for 2 hours, and then go back home by 10:30 and would not complain that I had to get up at 5 the next day and start all over again. Then fall came and all went down, just like that. Even though I've tried to cheer myself up by writing, reading, exercising, even my profile looks all good and dandy, but lately I just don't feel that way. It must be the fact that now my mother is going back to Mexico and I won't see her for a while. She is taking Luna with her!!! Yeah, that's gotta be the reason. But, just like my siblings, I'll get use to it. Maybe after a week or 2, I'll be able to get back on track, maybe. I'm not making absolutes anymore, but I'm not giving up either. It's just a road block, and finding another way around seems a bit complicated at the moment. That's life I guess...

Sunday, January 25, 2009 9:52 PM

Why elephants don't run Current mood: thoughtful Category: Life "A number of years ago, I had the rather unique experience of visiting backstage in Madison Square Garden, in New York, during the Ringling Brothers Barnum & Bailey Circus. To say the least, it was a fascinating experience. I was able to walk around looking at the lions, tigers, giraffes and all the other circus animals. As I was passing the elephants, I suddenly stopped, confused by the fact that these huge creatures were being held by only a small rope tied to their front leg. No chains, no cages. It was obvious that the elephants could, at any time, break away from their bonds but for some reason, they did not. I saw a trainer near by and asked why these beautiful, magnificent animals just stood there and made no attempt to get away. “Well,” he said, “when they are very young and much smaller we use the same size rope to tie them and, at that age, it’s enough to hold them. As they grow up, they are conditioned to believe they cannot break away. They believe the rope can still hold them, so they never try to break free.” I was amazed. These animals could at any time break free from their bonds but because they believed they couldn’t, they were stuck right where they were. Like the elephants, how many of us go through life hanging onto a belief that we cannot do something, simply because we failed at it once before? How many of us are being held back by old, outdated beliefs that no longer serve us? How many of us have avoided trying something new because of a limiting belief? Worse, how many of us are being held back by someone else's limiting beliefs?" This is your life, not a dress rehearsal by Jim Donovan

Friday, January 23, 2009 10:07 PM

Making your dreams your reality Current mood: awake Category: Life "You may not like the current condition of your life, but it will quickly change if you strive to achieve your ideals. You simply can't grow within and stand still without. Imagine a young person worn down by poverty and hard labor. She works long hours in a factory and hasn't been taught to read or right. She dreams of better things - of learning, intelligence, beauty, and life of ease. This vision of a more fulfilling existence empowers her and drives her to action. She focuses her free time and limited resources on the development of her hidden powers. In a short time, she has so altered her character through positive thinking that she can no longer work in the factory. This menial work clashes with her new mentality, and with the ease of trowing a coat aside, she leaves it behind forever as new doors open that harmonize with her expanding consciousness. Years later, this same woman is now the master of her mind's forces. She wields her thoughts with great influence and power. She speaks, and lives are changed. Men and women hang upon her words and remold their characters. Like the sun, she becomes the fixed and luminous center around which the lives of many people evolve. She has turned her youthful dream into reality - she has become one with her ideal. You'll also realize the vision of your heart, be it humble or beautiful or a mixture of both. You'll always gravitate toward that which you love the most, even if it's kept secret. Your life will be the exact result of your thoughts, and you'll receive what you earn - no more and no less. Whatever your present conditions may be, you'll fall, remain, or rise in accordance with your thoughts, visions, and ideals. You'll become as small as your most primitive desire and as great as your most grand hope. Eventually you'll walk through doors that have always seem close to you. You'll enter the office of your mentor and he will say, "I have nothing more to teach you." You will have become the master of your thoughts, who so recently dreamed the great vision that is now your life." As a Man Thinketh.

Saturday, January 10, 2009 4:12 PM

Quote Current mood: thoughtful Category: Life "If an extremely weak person embraces the truth that strength can only be developed through dedication and practice and begins to make such an effort, this person's soul will grow and develop with each exertion until it becomes incredibly powerful. Just as physically weak people can make themselves strong through careful and patient training, so can people with weak wills make themselves steadfast by the practice of inserting positive affirmations into their thought stream."- James Allen As a Man Thinketh

Wednesday, December 31, 2008 11:35 PM

Last blog of the year Current mood: calm Category: Blogging Just wanted to write something before the year ends. I'm just at home with my parents waiting for the year to end, about to call my siblings back in Mexico. I'm sure they will have more fun than us, I really hope they do. I was planing on going out tonight but I was sick all last week and it's really cold and windy out there so I decided not to, which is very depressing. In the 9 years I've been in this country, I haven't manage to have fun on new year's. I'll make sure is the last time though (like I haven't say that before). Next year, I will probably be in Mexico, so fingers cross. There has been a lot of good changes for me this year, there has also been a lot of regrets and mistakes that hopefully I learned from and will try to think twice before making them again. All in all, 2008 was a good year aside from the fact that half my family is away. I will see them towards the end of next year though. Seems long but lately time has been passing really fast so no worries. I just need to concentrate on what I want to accomplish next year which I already started to work towards. As long as I keep myself busy then I should be fine. If you happen to be reading this, have a happy new year, have lots of fun, be safe, drive safe. If you are reading this after new year's then I hope all of the above applies to you . Peace. "Let your supreme goal be to make others happy in order to gain happiness for yourself"- Paramhansa Yogananda

Thursday, December 25, 2008

6:23 PM - The four agreements
Current mood: animated
Category: Life

The Four Agreements can be summed up as follows:

(1) Be Impeccable With Your Word. Words have immeasurable power, so use them with care. Say only what you mean, and remember your opinion isn't fact. Silence is better than saying something you'll regret. The broad scope of this concept is to avoid sin against yourself by what you think. Sinning against the self takes many forms: such as, putting yourself down, gossiping, or putting anybody else down because you don't agree with what they think. Actions and words need to be consistent as part of being impeccable with yourself. The other side of the coin is the smoky mirror concept. Ruiz makes the point that our perceptions of others are merely reflections of ourselves. Therefore, to put another down or project negative words or energy towards another person, is to lash out at the other person because of our own insecurities.

(2) Don't Take Anything Personally. "Nothing other people do is because of you. It is because of themselves." That guy honking at you just spilled scalding coffee all over his lap, the boss screaming at you is going through a divorce. Their stuff has nothing to do with your stuff, and assuming you're the root cause of someone's behavior is not only self-centered, it's also a big waste of energy. There is an awful lot of negative energy out there and some of it is directed at us by other people. If you take it personally and take on the poison of words of others, it becomes a very negative agreement you have with yourself. What anybody thinks about you, or says about you, is really about them. Not taking it personally allows you to be in relationship with anyone and not get trapped in their stuff.

(3) Don't Make Assumptions. You can spend hours generating theories about why someone did something, or you can just ask. When someone lashes or does something unexpected, save time by seeking clarification. What we think we understand about what someone says, how someone looks at us, what someone means by what they do, etc, may often not reflect reality at all, and more often than not lead us to think badly of ourselves or of others, and reinforce not being impeccable with our word.

(4) Always Do Your Best. Your "best" is a variable thing from moment to moment. "When you do your best, you don't give the Judge the opportunity to find you guilty or to blame you." You can always say, "I did my best." There are no regrets. (p.80) The other key to doing your best revolves about being in action. "Action is about living fully. Inaction is the way that we deny life. Inaction is sitting in front of the television every day for years because you are afraid to be alive and to take the risk of expressing what you are. Expressing what you are is taking action. You can have many great ideas in your head, but what makes the difference is the action. Without action upon an idea, there will be no manifestation, no results, and no reward." (p.82) Do the best you can with the conflict in front of you, and you won't need to waste brain power on self-judgments or regrets.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

2:25 AM - I saw Twilight again
Current mood: WHATEVER!!!
Category: WHATEVER!!! Blogging

I know, I know, it's getting old already. I just really wanted to give it another chance, but it just didn't "dazzle" me. It doesn't do it any justice to the book whatsoever. And here I am, writing on a blog when I should be out there, making friends, having fun, etc, etc...

Back to Twilight. At least the first time I saw it, it was more entertaining because of the screaming. Also, all the parts where I didn't find any amusement this time, were the last time because of the laughing of the audience which found those parts funny; this time, none. Just a few little giggles here and there, which allowed me to pay more attention this time only to realize that the movie is not that big of a deal. I like the story. I don't like Robert Pattinson. The pacing is horrible, they didn't give the Cullen family the attention they deserve, and the scenes that were added, that have nothing to do with the story, could've been left out and added stuff from the book instead. What a mess, I really hope this makes sense.

Ok, Twilight complaining has been let out. Now we can forget about it and go on with our lives, until Dragon ball comes out so I can complain about it too, because I'm sure I will complain twice as much.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

5:32 AM - Just came back from the theater.
Current mood: played
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities

Well first of all, the theater was full of teenage girls (naturally) and right before the previews (note that the movie has not started yet) they all began to scream like crazy. So the previews when on, then the movie, and then more screaming; I couldn't even hear the first two lines.

The movie was alright, I can't say it was awesome because they cut a lot of important stuff, I believe (freaking movie directors, they just love to change things up don't they). Look, I know it must be hard to fit a 498 paged book into a 120 minutes movie but still, they could had done better. Oh, and I hate how they added scenes that were not even in the book. There were things they got right though, like Bella's clumsiness, the awkwardness she and her dad had with each other, the first time Edward catches Bella's scent on Biology (that was funny), her truck, when Edward introduces himself to Bella, I can't think of anything else at the moment.

Whatever, I have no choice but to take it for what it is. It was only the first time. Maybe, if I see it again, I will enjoy it more (not tomorrow, don't think I'm that crazy. You can expect me to see Harry Potter the very next day though).

This Robert Pattinson guy, not the best choice. I did like him as Cedric Digory in Goblet of Fire, but as Edward Cullen I just don't see it (I'll be careful not to say this out loud in front of teenage fans; sure they will eat me alive). My god, when he showed up for the first time, you couldn't hear anything but screaming. He just doesn't fit to the way the author describes him in the book.

What else can I add to this little rant? not much, only that I have to read the book again. I only wish that instead of manking a movie out of a good book, they should make it into a series, in this case, of 24 episodes. First season Twilight, second season New Moon, third season Eclipse and fourth and final season Breaking Dawn. Four years of none stop madness and happiness for me and many I'm sure, then after that, buy them all on DVD and keep them forever and ever. That would be a good idea.

OK then, time to change my page theme and movie pictures. What will it be? maybe Dragon ball (although, I'm more of a Dragon ball Z fan and the teaser does not seem promising at all), or Harry Potter (which I could have seen today if they hadn't changed the date) . Maybe I'll just grow up a little for a change, then I'll get back to my childish self.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

5:25 AM - I thought of something to write about
Current mood: accomplished
Category: Blogging

Okay, so I haven't written anything interesting in a while, not that I've written anything interesting at all. One thing that I am proud to announce though; for the past 3 weeks I've stayed away from unhealthy eating, meaning that I've been eating really healthy (obviously), and that's a big deal, for me anyways.

I've stopped eating rice, muffins, coffee, sugar (artificial sweeteners that is), eggs, milk (which causes me break out a lot) and now that that's out, I sort of see a difference on my face and feel the difference as well. I added a lot of vegetables (juices mostly) I eat an apple every single day first thing in the morning, I eat salmon most of the time. I drink soy milk (which I happen to love) and of course lots of water. I stopped eating red meats a while ago and now chicken is getting out of the way as well. I have this little idea bugging in my head that I should go vegan, main reason being my health and also a couple of pretty disturbing videos, but I don't want to push myself into anything too drastic. I'm still eating turkey cold cuts and fish so... we'll see what happens. One thing though, I do feel more energized, which means I must be doing something right, right? Also, the fact that my break outs are calming down, motivates me to keep on going; even though I still have to get up at freaking 4 in the morning (an issue that I'm about to fix pretty soon), but that's beside the point.

Well, that's it. My early morning call prevents me to keep on thinking what else I could add to this "interesting" blog of mine, so I'm out. Hopefully, I won't go that long without writing another one.



Take care.

PS. Twilight is coming out!!! Can't wait. It better be a great movie or else someone will get hurt.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

3:56 AM - lol
Current mood: amused

Reading back to all the things that I've written thus far, I'm like...

Whatever Diana!!! LOL

Thursday, October 09, 2008

6:27 AM - The Fact...
Current mood: pissed off

... that certain people do not approve of your methods is just too bad. Only you know what it is you are trying to accomplish, so only you can decide the best way to do it. You can change if you want anytime, but you really don't have to. So don't let people get into your head if you believe in your heart that what you're doing is right.

Why am I writing this? Because I'm Pissed. I don't have to prove anything to anybody. I am the only one I have to prove anything to, and that's all I have to say.

Monday, September 01, 2008

8:39 PM - OK!!!! enough surveys...
Current mood: happy
Category: Blogging

...lets get this blogging started!!!!

Hopefully, I'll have enough time to post once a week just like I've planed, but since most of my ideas never come to pass, I'll just be content with this one :D.

So what I've been doing you ask (if any of you even reads my blog); well a lot actually. I've been exercising, reading, working, going out to the beach, the movies, playing pool, guitar hero (I started on the hard level 2 days ago even though I haven't even finished with the medium) cleaning my room, laundry, sleeping... etc; I'm just trying to keep myself busy at the moment. It keeps me from getting depress.

The exercise part is not coming along as I thought it would. Loosing fat on the mid section has become really hard for me, but I'm not giving up. My abs will show, eventually; I know it.

I've been reading Stephenie Meyer's books which I happen to like a lot. I'm almost done with Eclipse (by the way, I should make a review of the books, that would give me more to write about; I would have to read them again though witch I don't mind) and naturally after I'm done I'll start with Breaking Dawn right away.

What else can I say??? I've been keeping myself busy and I have nothing else to say? lol that's funny. Well, I just don't want to get too much into details. For now this will do, I'm not much of a writer and I'm dying to something else. I get bore too fast.

Take care.

Friday, July 11, 2008

5:17 AM - no subject
Current mood: discontent
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

You know, it's unbelievable how tough it is for me to do something as simple as writing. I've been sitting here for 10 minutes and nothing comes to mind aside from complaining, of course.

So, I haven't been doing much MMA lately, just felt like taking a break; I'll be back next week though. Tomorrow I'm planing to go to a gymnastic center and see if I can muster enough courage to learn to back flip. Of course I don't expect to do that the first day. I know it'll take time and patience to get to that. I also need to increase my flexibility and strength if I am ever to achieve my dream. I've been putting it off and, like so many times before, I need to keep trying to get motivated. It's just that sometimes, nothing seems to make sense. This damn "what's the point?" question is always in my head and I need to get rid if it and that's about it. It's late. I need some rest.

Take care.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

10:35 PM - Blah
Current mood: anxious
Category: Blogging

I haven't written anything substantial for the past 2 weeks or so. I don't think I've ever written anything substantial for that matter :P. I just can't come up with anything new to say. Sometimes I just go blank, I loose all my motivation and then it's hard for me to get it back. I don't know what I'm doing wrong or what I should be doing. I'm writing none stop at the moment so I'm just letting my thought come out just like that without interruptions. I read somewhere this was a good writing exercise so I decided to go with it and see what happens. I am listening to the playlist that I have on my profile. alalalalalalal don't know what else to write about. One of my favorites movie scores is playing right now. My name is Lincoln by Steve Jablonsky from the Island soundtrack. I think is a beautiful piece of work. I wish I could write music like that. Man, I wish I could do a lot of things but my main problem would be my lack of inspiration and originality. The only thing that I'm really good at these days is exercising and and eating and sleeping. That sucks, I need to figure out a way to be less pessimistic and more active. I know what I want, I just don't know how to go about it and sometimes I'm too scared to reach out and grab it. All that I've learned about self-improvement, personal development and whatnot sometimes does not make any sense and I go down to square one. This state of mind lasts for about a week sometimes a little bit more than that. But I think the important thing here is that I never give up. I always keep trying and I guess that is one of the good things about me, even though I complain too much. Ok think this is better than the last 2 "blogs". I will be able to sleep soundly tonight :D That is it, I'm done for the day. I will go out now and clear my mind.

Take care.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

11:55 PM - Clueless
Current mood: blank
Category: Blogging

What should I write about today?

My brother's graduation was yesterday. I'm happy for him. We are all done with high school for good ( or at least till one of them has a child, not me though :P ) Now college is ahead and he has to travel back to Mexico for that to happen. My sister can't wait for him to be there. He is leaving on July 16th and that makes me officially the older sister that still lives with her parents. How cool is that :s. It's all good; at least I don't have a lot of expenses and that helps a lot. I feel a little sad though. I don't know exactly when I'm going to see them again because part of me wants to stay here in New York. My parents are leaving for sure, they don't like it here and me staying here all by myself doesn't sound pretty. I have a lot to think about.

Why don't you go back to college Diana? Well, I'm not so sure anymore. I rather pay for another set of classes at my mixed martial art school ( which I already have by the way) than expend it on college when I don't even know what career I want to pursue. It use to be art (drawing and painting), it use to be music, it use to be graphic design. When I was a kid, I wanted to be doctor. I don't know, it's frustrating sometimes. At least I'm doing something, right. Exercise is the only thing that I seem to enjoy at the moment.

You know, there was something I really wanted to write about but I just can't remember what it was. I guess it's gonna have to wait till next time or whenever I remember. I should write down the topics so I won't forget.

Take care

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

12:25 AM - Blog Time!!!
Current mood: animated
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I love dance/techno music. It makes my heart pound faster, especially when I exercise. I singed up to a new kick boxing class in which we punch and kick hanging heavy bags to the rhythm of it (well I do anyways, I don't know about the rest of them) and I love it. It focuses more on the fitness aspect of the workout rather than the technique itself, which I don't mind at all. Hitting the heavy bag improves your muscle tone and your cardio endurance. I honestly believe that what I need is variety and this class is giving me that. Now don't get me wrong, I still like my MMA classes. I'm just a person that needs constant change in whatever I do, otherwise I go crazy. I hate sticking to a plan, the more I "try" to follow it, the less I get done. On the other hand, when I do different things whenever I feel like doing them (especially now that I have 2 options) things start to work out for me. I feel less stressed, more animated, less worried.

One thing that I am trying to follow though is my eating habits. That is a tricky one for me. I wrote a few blogs ago that I would eat as healthy as I possibly could without cheating. Well, not working out so far. It's not like I am eating junk, or sodas, or all the bad stuff that we are not supposed to eat. I stopped doing that a long time ago. What I do is that I eat more than what I should. Portions are my problem. I just love food and I can't control myself at times. Especially when I get upset or down for whatever reason. Another thing is that the 5 to 6 meals a day become 3 to 4 big ones due to the fact that my job, most of the time, demands my full attention. Costumers just keep coming in one after the other and my food stays just there, getting cold by the minute, or I don't have time to even prepare it. So yeah, that's something that I need to learn to control and I will, eventually.



Ok, enough writing for today. Gotta keep on living, organizing and whatnot.

Take care whoever you are :D

Monday, June 09, 2008

7:05 PM - Nothing special
Current mood: awake
Category: Blogging

I didn't get a chance to write anything this weekend because I was busy. On Saturday I worked , then I went to my MMA class. After that, I got home, did the laundry and then went out. Sunday I got up early, took a trial class of kick boxing at this place that just opened 2 weeks ago (loved it by the way). Then got home, washed my car, cleaned my room and then got out again. I was dead by the time I got home but all in all, it was a great weekend.

Since I don't want to spend too much time here thinking of what to write next, I'm just gonna leave it like that, go out there and live a little so by the end of the week I'll have something more interesting to write about.

Take care :)

Sunday, June 01, 2008

8 PM - Not much to say
Current mood: animated
Category: Blogging

Alright!!! It's been a week since my last blog so it's time for a new one. Today it's a beautiful day, warm and sunny and I'm here, waisting my time writing a blog. It's all good though, I have no one to hang out with at the moment or one of them just don't want to talk to me. I wonder why.

I really don't know what to talk about. All I can tell you is that I'm working on my vocabulary. Of course, I've only manage to work on it for 2 las week days because I've been too tired to even think.

My eating habits are changing for the better, finally. I'm exercising as regularly as my mental strength allows me to, because I know I can take more than what I get; I just don't want to.

And that's it for now. Seems like I finally have someone to hang out with.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

1:10 AM - New goal (from May 2008 to October 2009)
Current mood: anxious
Category: Life

Alright, this blog thing isn't working out as well as I thought it would. I said I was going to try and write every week, but lately I just can't seem to come up with anything. However, my writing is too rusty so I have to get it together for the sake of my own sanity.

I have a new goal besides the one in which I will get the body that I've always wanted. I've set upon myself that within the next year and a half (or so) that I have left in this country, I will improve in writing, reading, speaking and everything else that has to do with English.

My own insecurities have prevented me from improving in that which I believe is the most important skill there is in this planet, communication. My life is not as exiting as it could've been had I had the courage to be who I really am, without been afraid and because of that, I've just been quiet all along.

I have put a lot of effort this past 3 years trying to improve myself and I think I've made a significant progress. Now, if I could just work a little bit harder than usual, which I will of course, I will without a doubt improve and get to that next level that I am longing for.

So I guess this is it for now. I will start to make an effort to write at least once a week and go from there.

Take care whoever you are :)